(scream)

How I feel ?

How do I feel the same way I felt two weeks ago w|o a doubt , no hesitation involed. I feel like if yu were to simple ignore my calls or say no; it may shatter my ego. It may destroy me& bring me into a bigger hole !
Can I get any deeper; then where I am now, I feel like this can be my alltime low in my teenage lifespan. To the point where idc abt anyone nor their feelings; their opinons` NADA!
My choice of people to be around is reaaal low ; I feel like people are a useless item to me & I'm not sure when this happened but it did & I just dnt know how to fix it .