sigh

I feel it ' its slippin
Right outta my grasp
As ifall deeper&nd
Into a mess
Stresses me thinking how can ifix it
Or wht did ido now '
idnt wnna be unhappy idnt wnna walk around with any frown
i juss wnna be down for yu '
Like your down for
can I ask yu one thing .?
can yu please not leave .?

scramblee

To find my total opposite`to find someone just like me, we have nothing&everything in common| which is what i love to hate. Day in and day out `i love you theb like yu then hate you again` its like a circle&* sometimes I just want the relationship to end. Fall to pieces and we start back at the begining; lonely inside hoping for a new begining. To something that we hope is forever; but we all know forever could end tomorrow. Cause this what we thought would last a lifetime just ended&nd it only took a matter of time. cause when aren't worth it &nd time is wasted ` let's face it we go through this as life goes on; love is like singing a song; things will be fine as long as yu dnt get the words wrong.

nothing

nothing good ever happens when iget caught up ' iget caught up I catch feelings I distance myself&nd then they leave mee; in the dust. Without a word they go ' leave based on how they feel while I'm stuck whens broken promises&nd question

how ifelt

as i sit on the phone ifeel like to burst into tears ; cause somethings idnt understand &nd idnt think i ever will. somethings idnt get how everyone turns on me&nd its not everyone but i believe soon it will be ; cause what reason do people have to stay.? idnt kno how im suppose to feel ; should I cry should I fight .? for what don't ask everything is scattered in my mind sometimes igo by happy as can bee &nd then i sit by myself &nd then i think ;Nia where do yu go from here .? do yu qo left or right .? do istop in the place I'm standing or do igo forward. maybe backwards if only that was possiblee` boy i wish if that's was possiblee what would ieven change.? cause doesn't everything igo through make a better person.? well doesn't it .? maybe ican see that ; sometimes' idnt know ithink ineed a vacation .! a breather a BREAK.! idnt need this idnt need yu I DON'T NEED ANY OF YU;iqtta qo iqtta get away .! i need too ; ifeel like imma break.! Ima B R E A K into L I T T LE P I E C E S &nd just drift away far into the wind. . . . .

brb

:D bacc bloggin ; oonce iget my labtop i will try&nd blog everyday .

i had to admit (early january)

as i sit on the phone ifeel like to burst into tears ; cause somethings idnt understand &nd idnt think i ever will. somethings idnt get how everyone turns on me&nd its not everyone but i believe soon it will be ; cause what reason do people have to stay.? idnt kno how im suppose to feel ; should I cry should I fight .? for what don't ask everything is scattered in my mind sometimes igo by happy as can bee &nd then i sit by myself &nd then i think ;Nia where do yu go from here .? do yu qo left or right .? do istop in the place I'm standing or do igo forward. maybe backwards if only that was possiblee` boy i wish if that's was possiblee what would ieven change.? cause doesn't everything igo through make a better person.? well doesn't it .? maybe ican see that ; sometimes' idnt know ithink ineed a vacation .! a breather a BREAK.! idnt need this idnt need yu I DON'T NEED ANY OF YU;iqtta qo iqtta get away .! i need too ; ifeel like imma break.! Ima B R E A K into L I T T LE P I E C E S &nd just drift away far into the wind. . . . .

im bacc .

hey blog im bacc .!
&nd whew have imissed talking to yu(well writing). well let's explain my feelings as of now ; I'm HAPPY` ha im finee w| life &nd this feels good : idnt feel bothered w| drama tied into a situation or anythings ; things are normal w| absolutely nothin on my brain - hopes this last -

BB

if I could honestly say one thing about bijon I would say he is PETTY.! extremly petty ; to hype me &nd make it seem like yu was going to put the world in my hands &nd then yu just BOOM switch act funny style w|o no explanation` like too me yu just look like a wack nigga like neva would of thought yu could or would of done that ; &nd fór yu to now wanna be my friend bothers me cause ifeel like this is all apart of a game yu are playin&nd iguess im losing ; but fucc that I FORFIT. Cause ididnt wanna play no game where my heart is involed ; &nd that's something yu seem to not get; that MY HEART was on the line befóre yu threw it bacc in my facee &nd basically laughed while doin it ; I really trusted yu&nd now for me to t®ust again is SLIM . idnt know anyway to make yu understand or see how much it did hurt&nd that ireally did CRY. I really did care ; but irefuse to play w| yu ; iwould like yu out my life (something idnt mean) but ireally want; but its been a week or so ; so I'm gettin over it ; but BB this is a part of my life imay never understand