1st blog :)

When it comes to relationshipss I have certain views ; that imaybe would follow if i was in relationship I feel like all these relationshipps fail b|c of bullshit that people keep lettin in or keep happening&its juss certain things that I feel like I can let slide ; my mom said "not everyone is as smart as yu or thinks like you" which I sometimes forget & then iqet upset when ppl dnt understand me or try& make me look at shit a different way&then ihave to think re evaluate&put wht they said into consideration, which then sometimes fucks up my thinking ' then back to re-evaluating . Then to make a decision that may sometimes makes myself unhappy . Ahh then back two weeks l8tr for another evaluation . Here's come when ppl say I over think shit ' which ahh well fuck it , its true. Then iover think the wrong shit I'm always tryin to spare someones feelings . Cause iguess hurting them for no reason is hard for me, that's why ibeat around the bush maybe even lead them on ; un-knowingly knowing .then they get hooked ' now icant shake em&then everyones puts there two sense & then I'm pressured &pushed into a sqaure, a box shit a fuckin triangle . Now Nia's thinks AGAIN. Fuck quit it ! Juss let shit happen nia ' yea well only way that happens is when I'm intoxiacted , cause then ihave an excuse when people jump down my back. Hey that's the only way I feel comfortable coming outta my shell is when im high; drunk. BOTH. Not good huh ? I know but fuck it , who's gonna stop me ?