Perfect org Nov 3

In the search for perfect I sought a lot of short comings , in the words of hardnett I'm always on the search for perfect& that once I found out that the person isn't what my standards of "perfect" should bee I up&leave em . I may say that is not true , I only leave cause they. REALLY piss me off&they not my man anyway or b|c I'm tired of them they don't excite me or treat me some kind of way ( that I sometimes blow wayyyy outta proportion) but even when they don't do that I juss leave em I make myself believe that they did or try to do one of those things& then its over . I normally like yu if your naturally sweet on me ' no game juss cool. Ya noe ? Well back to the issue ' vanillabean has a drinking problem cause 5outof the 7days of the week this negro is "drunk" on a fuckin weekday . Yu know its a problem when this nikka is drunk on a weekday .! Nikka said it help him heel the pain ; of waht? Now I'm not gonna get all deep &emotional w| the cat I don't know him well enough but maybe that's a turn off I atleast want a nikka that's tryna do something . I mean I can't say he not b|c he stay curvin me'&if he curve me onemore time its. REAL SLIM for him&ima date arnold b|c so far as I can see he is the only boy other than a few others that care for me that I could trsut in a relationship imean I already know what our problem would be If we dated ' the fact that I won't believe anything he say&the fact that he ALWAYS talkin to a new girl stay on aim .&sometimes juss doesn't caree . I'm thinking real hard abt goin out w| him . Or maybe sheldon. MAYBE. Now vanillabean he really startin to piss me off when the fuck imma get my date ? Wtf yu be doin soo important iwonder if thiss nikka gotta girl. Shit I'm aggravated ' until another day _NB*

P.S sometimes , just sometimes I get easily discouraged.