& to end the night I feel like I'm slowly just going to accept anyhting ' just to feel "loved" uh I'm already accepting be a sideline hoe being # 2 to something I figured would soon end it is just a phase & now look how it has prolonged & it will soon deepen .That scares me. DEEPLY.I'm spiraling outta of it'someone push stop, escape eject'where's the HAULT sign wait there are none of those buttons in life' its just yu& the world yu choose when to stop when to put your foot down&when to take control the time is NOW or NEVER. When will I choose ?