(Sigh) I don't get why I am so emotional! Well last week I made the decision to not prolong anything w| joshua cause its no use I don't see us going anywhere , I am not a little kid I dnt play the games anymore cause in the end I'm not gonna our my heart into a half listening ear. He has a girl&shes not going any where and in the end its fucked up towards her. I know delroy thinks I've could of made it something but it just would of been a fuck and I have feelings for him so for me it would of been deeper, he doesn't "come home" to me at night, I'm not a main priority. I'm only important when I'm around& vice versa so now what's the point ? Maybe that saddens me ' I'm actually and truly ALONE.